... my story
For me cross-dressing started as a child. I can remember stealing my sister’s dresses and wearing them in the closet (literally). I did get caught by my parents and sisters and of course was ridiculed. Then I did quit dressing when I was about 8 years old. Looking back I am pretty sure I know the reason why but at this time I am not going to explain why other than it was a traumatic experience in my life. Many years went by in my life and I did many of the totally non-feminine  things, rebuilding cars and hanging with the guys. One way that I have always been different is I never cared too much to play sports.  Life went on for many years and I never had the urge to dress that I could recall at all. I did get into some serious bodybuilding and went to the gym religiously every day for weeks some times three times a day. Then for some reason the desire to cross-dress started to come back and I like most t-girls I know started with panty hose. I believe that this is because they are easy to buy and can be worn under our regular clothes. I can still remember the first time that I bought and wore panty hose. After that I started to get some shoes, dresses, wigs, panties, bras, and even made up some breast forms out of bird seed.  I found the Internet very helpful on getting information and clothing. Then once again the desire left with no reason. I did get rid of all of my stuff and that seemed to be the end of that for me. I cannot call this a purge in that it was not mainly driven by guilt. Yes I had guilt but it did not seem to be the main driver in my life.

 Later in life the whole desire came back and this time with a vengeance. It was not all that long ago but the desire was really strong so I started once again to shop and look at the net for answers. I have to say the internet is a great place to find out that there are so many people with transgender issues. Not just male wanting to be female but also female wanting to be male. I have had the opportunity to meet many people who have a desire to change the gender look of the one they were born with in life. This is both on the net and real time. One of the advantages is that I live in an area where there are many people and there are several groups to join. Also I have to say that pretty much every weekend there is something going on in the transgender world where I live. From just going to plays and dinner to the night club scene. This is not limited to the gay bars and nightclubs but many places that accept us and will even pretty much use the proper pronoun. Nothing worse than being called sir or buddy when you are dressed to the 9s!

 The above paragraph was written when I lived in Minneapolis, I moved from there 4 years ago and made a decision to do my first official purge. Gave all that I had to people that I thought would enjoy my clothing. Trust me I had a lot as at that time in my life I was making really good money. Extremely stressful job but good money. All of my clothes were in a 8x10 storage locker and it was full. So will I build up a huge wardrobe again? Probably not as I do not think Paige will be as strong but she will have some items in the near future once again.
 

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